Tuesday, January 13, 2009

She's aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiive!!!!

Yep. That would be me... So sorry for worrying you Jeanne, I've been a bad blogger. Very, very bad. I haven't really even been keeping up with my email either (which doesn't help when people are trying to figure out why you've fallen off the face of the planet... again, sorry Jeanne!)

So, after we decided to quit TTC and I got put back on BCP's (which ugh, so NOT a good thing, but more on that later) I kind of went into a funk. After 3 years of doing nothing but obsessing over getting pregnant, I had a really hard time adjusting to doing nothing. As my last few posts reflect, I still wasn't feeling all that hot (constant nausea and pain) and emotionally I was just not holding it together very well. How did I deal? Well, I didn't... I just chose to try to ignore things... ignore the Endo, ignore how I felt, ignore pretty much everything and anything that had even the remotest connection to all this crap. Unfortunately, that meant ignoring this blog... again, I'm sorry.

I think I'm ready to come back now.

What have I been up to lately? Well, pretty much working my bum off. I'm starting a new job here in a few weeks and am currently training my replacement and trying to tie up all loose ends before making the switch. I'm going back to school this fall to finish up my RN, so I'm really excited about that too! We're planning on paying down our debt and then saving up for adoption. Maybe some day we'll attemp IVF... maybe we won't. For right now, we're closing the TTC chapter in our lives for my own health and sanity.

On the Endo front, BCP hasn't been all that fun. The pain has gone away for the most part, so that's great BUT everything else just really bites! I'd been bleeding pretty much non-stop since I started it about 2 months ago. I also started getting migraines more and more frequently and the severity was just out of control. They would last for days at a time, my worst lasted about 5 days... insane, I wanted to die! It brought the nausea back and I was back on Phenegran.

It finally occured to me that maybe it was the BCP's (duh!) so I called my doctor and as soon as he heard what had been happening, he told me to STOP taking them right away and put me back on Aygestin. This was about 1 week ago and so far that was hands down the best decision ever! The bleeding stopped pretty much over night (YAY!!!) and the migraines have been slowly getting better. I was told Aygestin can cause headaches, but we're hoping it will at least not be as severe as what I'd been experiencing before. I'm starting to feel a lot better, so I'm hoping this will be successful. I still plan on getting the Mirena IUD in a few months, so we'll see.

Hope you are all having a great (and pain free!) day! :)


Jeanne said...

Hey! You're back!! Yay!

I'm glad you're OK. There is no need to apologize. I was just concerned. I didn't mean to badger you with email! :)

I'm so sorry you have been going through so much! Please don't apologize. We all do what we have to to get through the day. You don't owe anyone any explanation.

I'm glad you're "back on the radar". :)

Hey... have you read Beedle the Bard yet? It's out you know. I know you are a Harry Potter fan. (You can find link to it on my blog).

I'm sorry you have been working so hard. I'm so happy for you that you've decide to go back to school. Good for you! You'll make a great nurse!!

Just for future reference if you are ever interested...

My friend Alicia is at the beginning of the adoption route. See her blog (Yayastuff): http://www.yayastuff.blogspot.com/

I have blogged about her a couple of times recently. I wrote about her "adoption adventure fund". (Alicia has some really cool friends like Ashley with brilliant ideas about how to afford adoption)!

Alicia is also on hormones and still TTC. She and her husband have been through an awful lot. See his guest blog post:


I am glad you are doing what you need to do to protect your health and sanity. I'm proud of you for doing what is right for you! I can only imagine how hard it is for you. Actually, I can't imagine. You have been through so much!

I have had my own interesting challenges with BCPs over the years. I lost count but I think I was on 10-11 types. I haven't taken any in a long time.

I once bled every day for over a year!! I don't mean to alarm you but even danocrine did not stop the bleeding. I would make sure your doctor knows about it.

I have my own theories about why I had these bleeding problems. Be on the lookout for anemia.

I'm sorry to hear about your migraines. Have you tried acupuncture? My acupuncturist is AWESOME and he treats migraines with it. He uses very thin, Japanese-style needles. I have been meaning to blog about acupuncture forever and it's on my to-do list. I was just quizzing him the other day for info to add to my post.

I'm sorry about the nausea related to your migraines too! I once had to get hypnosis for nausea! I'm so sorry!

Oh! Now I see you DID talk to your doc about your symptoms! GOOD! (I'm scrolling up & down to read your post and reply at the same time).

I have had BCPs give me nausea before.

It's hard when the nausea could be migraines, BCPs, or both... Stopping the BCPs will hopefully clarify that...

Good luck with the Aygestin & Mirena.

I know of a woman who took Mirena. See her new blog:


I'm so glad I just happened to spot your post on my reader!!

I'm so glad you're OK!


My Endo Journey said...

i cnt type much or well_im on a cell! so glad to see u blog again-we were worried, though, i understand why u took a break. so sorry about the bc- i have a hard time bc of migraines too, the only one i culd tolerate was the ring. glad to know there is an alternative! just wanted to say hi and ive been thinking about u!